In my silence, I speak of more words than one. Us, not I.
I question nothing. I know. I do. I bow my head. I am yours. I do not wish of troubles nor quarrels. In distance there is already a different array of struggles. I surrender. I will fight for love but will not fight with you. I am done being strong at all times. I am in need of care and warmth until I reach the age of my demise. A partner, a lover, a friend. The best in all of those categories. The best. I am done being right if it will cause me your heart. I am giving you all of me, for I do not intend to lose all of you. I bow my head. And there are no more words to speak. I give you my hand and quietly, I wish you’d never let go. I will bend because I comprehend. Even at times of repetitive sadness. Even at times of lingering shadows from the past. Arrogance is already a stranger to me. Yet wisdom and patience guide me as I walk blindly in this path of true love. I restrain from all the things I know of being hurtful. I can be that. I have been that. I won’t be that no more. I will endure and accept all your pains, even at times they have seem to be a distant memory of mine. They make me glimpse at my back and that road has already been blurred by fog and heat. But for you, I will be still. And I will stand beside you and wait until these wounds have completely healed. I ask myself if I can be that untiring of all this… Will I stumble upon that person I used to be in situations like this? Will I be able to stand up and look away and head out the door. That person is me. She will always be that person. My strengths are sometimes dangerously potent. I am insurmountable at times. I am a description of compelling and tenacity, powerful and tough, alone and successful. Yet I choose to not be that when it comes to you. What I have with you has gone three steps ahead of that person. And I am willing to let her stay behind the two of us. That is how I love thee my dear. It is life-changing, self-altering. I only wish that yourself can also stand behind the power of us. And that in all hardships and possible sorrows and misunderstandings, us is mightier than the individuals of our reality. I bow my head because I wait for you to hold your head high before me. I will just be here until you see what I have seen. I will wait bravely until your ready to look forward with me, by your side, all the time. Everyday. All this. Never let go of my hand for I can share with you my strength and inextinguishable fire. Have faith. Trust me. Trust yourself. And when confusion and anger attack your kind heart, look me in the eye and I will show you that there is beauty and good in all of darkness. I am here. For you. Unlearn the shrieks of despair. Unlearn them burdens of your own worries and frustrations. Come and cry on my shoulder for only a limit of time. I will never tire of pulling you up that slump even if at times I am weak and fragile. Hear me, my love. All these words are meant to get to your heart. Memorize them for they will always be there to help you find a smile. The earth will never stop shaking. Be still with me please. Us, is more powerful than you and I.
